Moon

The moon is so strong
I feel it won't be long
Before it demands me back
And I'll be surrounded by black
I fear it not at all
For it is just another wall
Leading to my secret place
Somewhere out there in space

The light that shines upon me
Was most certainly meant for thee

You are a symbol of eternity
And most definitely infinity
So dreadfully far away
It's so hard for me to stay
There is nothing in this place for me
Oh how earnestly i long for thee

Painfully
I look at thee
I envy you so
I can't let it go

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All made by me ...

Despair

Darkness. I've never really feared it or given it much thought, but suddenly it's so frightening. Empty...

The huge hole in my body is expanding, slowly and painfully. I try to keep myself together, but it's like sand slipping through my fingers. I'm grasping at nothing, trying to keep something that dissapeared a long time ago. It's like I'm drowning, slowly, feeling nothing but the pain inside of me. I try to open my eyes, but everything is pitch black, the air is heavy and cold. It's weighing me down, drowning my in my own pain. Your touch still lingers on my skin, but it's burning.

I'm not aware, not alive anymore. I'm just drifting through nothingness. I'm a zombie, without a purpose. Without a reason for living. My eyes are dried out caves, hollow.

What becomes of the broken hearted

As I walk this land with broken dreams
I have visions of many things
Love's happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion,
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe.

The fruits of love grow all around
But for me they come a tumblin' down.
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows
Searching for light
Cold and alone
No comfort in sight,
Hoping and praying for someone to care
Always moving and goin to where
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe.

I'm searching though I don't succeed,
But someone look, there's a growing need.
Oh, he is lost, there's no place for beginning,
All that's left is an unhappy ending.
Now what's become of the broken-hearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care.

I'll be looking everyday
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothings gonna stop me now
I'll find a way somehow
I'll be searching everywhere
(fade)

I will never forgive you for making me love you

When I first met you, I really didn't give you a second look. You were just another person in the world. An anonymous snowflake in the middle of a blizzard. Still you didn't seem to care about being a nobody. I was sixteen. I didn't care about the world, or my future. I lived in the moment, grasping at invisible things. Living in my own little world, a bubble. I never gave love a second thought. Love didn't exist. It was all about getting drunk, kissing bous, that was that. I didn't know your name, but still you talked to me. I think that was when it all started. You were different from the other guys; you listened and seemed to care. In the beginning you were just a nice friend nothing more. You were attentive without being too pushy. You stayed in my shadow and didn't leave it. I guess I took you for granted sometimes. Just relying on you without considering your feelings. You took it all, never letting your eyes leave me. I think, no I know that, that was the day milliongs of butterflies hatched inside me. Slowly they made their way out of their cocoons, spread their wings and went for my heart. You became surrounded by a golden light, everything about you became desirable. Just a light touch from your hand sent me over a cliff, I was falling hard. The first time we kissed I went to heaven and there an angel told me to never let you go. You burst the bubble I was living in and filled my world with shooting stars. Every touch, kiss and word is burned into my heart. You alone became my world. You told me that you had loved me for a long time and I told you I'd love you forever. You had consumed me, I was yours completely. You were my reason for living, my reason for breathing. I never doubted for one second that we were forever, but one day the stars began to fall to the ground. The butterflies weren't fluttering as much as they used to and your words became fewer. I didn not dare to doubt you, but the day your smile dissapeared, the butterflies died, the light turned of and the stars became shards of glass. I'll never forget your face when you said forever ends here. I was no longer the sun in your world, you had found someone brighter. I'm sure you heard my heart scream, saw the tears of blood running from my eyes. I didn't notice you leaving, leaving behind everything that could remind you of me. The worst part wasn't that it ended, but that you made me fall for you. If it had just been a fling I wouldn't be sitting here with a dying heart in my hands. You lured me in, trapped me and in the end you killed me. All these things you did, unintentionally.

fools rush in

Fools rush in
Where angels fear to tread
And so i come to you my love
My heart above my head
Though i see
The danger there
If there's a chance for me
Then i don't care

Fools rush in
Where wise men never go
But wise men never fall in love
So how are they to know
When we met
I felt my life begin
So open up your heart and let
This fool rush in

Fools rush in
Where wise men never go
But wise men never fall in love
So how are they to know
When we met
I felt my life begin
So open up your heart and let
This fool rush in
Just open up your heart and let
This fool rush in
Let open up your heart and let
Ths fool rush in

crap

i found God on the bottom of an empty bottle of vodka
he told me that life will always be hard
that pain is something that we have to carry
and that i will always have regrets

. . .

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here